Life Between the Big Moments

I struggle to live in the moment. I’m constantly looking at the horizon and imagining what sits beyond my sight.  It’s actually one of my strengths, at least in theory. A few years back I took the Strength Finders 2.0 evaluation, which I highly recommend taking if you don’t have a firm grasp on your personal strengths. The test provided me with a list of five attributes that fit my personality. Apparently, I’m a futuristic individual which means I’m good at envisioning various possible outcomes, and the makes since considering I’m a very goal oriented individual. At times I allow my strengths to run wild and they transform into weaknesses. 

Even when I’m hiking I’m always thinking about my next water source, lunch break, or town stop.  I’ll focus on the future until the shear beauty of nature beats me over the head, causing me to take a deep breath and absorb life in the moment.

It’s easy to live life for those big moments, you know, the moments we all pursue.  We move from one chapter to the next, yet we experience voids between the big moments of life.  

I am currently in one of those voids.  Three months have past since I completed the Pacific Crest Trail, and I’m still waiting for the next defining moment.  I’m waiting to hear back from a few job possibilities and I’m already thinking about next summer.  I figure another adventure will consume me if I don’t find what I’m looking for in the next few months.

I see how critical patience and hope become in the voids of life.  It’s so easy to become trapped within our situations and feel anxiety build as we drowned in the seemingly indifference of the world around us.  Sadly, patience isn’t one of my five strengths, but I persevere as I wait and anticipate the moments beyond the horizon.